I'm still processing the truth that my Daddy is not here. There is so much going on in my head and my heart at this moment that I'm not sure what to say in this space.
But I feel a numb peace at this moment, and for that, I'm thankful.
The past week has set my world upside down. My perspective has completely changed. At this point in my life, I was feeling a little lost in work and chores and fitness goals and to-do lists. All GOOD things. But not "First Things." And right now, I have a clarity that I never want to lose again. That clarity is this: Life is short. And all that matters is loving God and loving people.
Jesus said it best here-- 'Love the Lord your God with all your passion and prayer and intelligence.’ This is the most important, the first on any list. But there is a second to set alongside it: ‘Love others as well as you love yourself.’ These two commands are pegs; everything in God’s Law and the Prophets hangs from them.””
Matthew 22:37-40 MSG
I want to love others the way my family and I have been shown love this week.
Billie and I pulled in our driveway Wednesday night to find a basket of goodies and two flower arrangements along with multiple cards.
Within the next several days, I received 3 paleo meals cooked by friends, a plant and memory blanket from my coworkers, and packages in the mail including a "sunshine box" and a picture frame. I will NEVER forget these things.
But the sweetest gift has been people sharing their memories of dad. I will never stop talking about him. And I plan to never lose the perspective of "First Things" again.